Private Teo! Finally after 4 months of life as a recruit on Tekong, I have finally graduated. And what a grand graduation it was, starting 24km route march starting from changi ferry terminal all the way till the F1 paddock, via East Coast Park and part of the Benjamin Sheares bridge. And man was the graduation parade on the floating platform worth the wait. With all the parents on the stands and the parade only lasting 2 hours (though the rehearsals took days to get the procedings right), my mates and I have finally graduated. Even though we only had less then 2 hours of sleep after our route march before the parade, adrenaline kept most of us awake and through the parade. I had blisters all over my two feet and after i got home from the parade i took a long bath and an even longer nap to recharge my batteries.

4 months of training all boiled down to the 2 hours. All the field camps, sit test, life firing range and even the once in a life time hand grenade throwing would definitely stay right in the deepest vaults in my memories as one of the most memorable times.

Now with only hours away, I am preparing for the next phase of my ns life which is in the specialist cadet school to train to become a sergeant. Its not really what i target to go but its still better then nothing. I stil have roughly 2 months to train hard and hopefully be able to make the crossover criteria and crossover to officer cadet school. Its not going to be easy though but I am setting that as my goal and will definitely work up and hopefully i would be able to reach it at the second time trying. All hands on deck for me to meet this target of mine which could be the turning point in my life.

Alright thats pretty much what i have to update after so long. Hopefully i can return here with good news in a few months time! I am out!

Hmm i am not very sure how many people would see this post, i wouldnt be surprised if its none at all, well i am back updating my blog and yes its almost metres thick in dust again. (Due to my lack of blogging, LOL) Only 3 wait 2 more days in a few minutes time when it turns 12am till I enlist for national service and will only get to see my pink IC after I served the 2 years of army. I have to report at 9am at Pasir Ris Bus interchange and take a bus to head over to the army jetty where I will be "shipped" off to Pulau Tekong. lolx

As the day draws near, I find myself dreading it more then anything. Well I guess I have to face up to it that I cant hide or run from it unless i want to go to jail for it. I wasn't selected to enter one of the elite units in the SAF the commandos so I am now entering as an infantry recruit like majority of the guys entering NS. Maybe its a blessing in diguise?? Who knows? All I can do now is to enjoy the rest of my remaining days of civilian life before i become a full time NS man for two years. I might blog for the last time before i go in, if not i would do so after i book out on the weekends! Oh and lastly, I hope my brain wouldn't be anymore rusty when i enter NS than the state it already is now after just months away from books since I graduated from poly.

Annyong hi kyeseyo!!
(ps: Its Korean)

Hey guys, this shall be my first blog post of the 2010 year. Yes i know i know, the amount of dust of this blog is metres thick already. But i shall wipe them off now and do some spring cleaning. lolx.



First and foremost. I finally finished my poly life now waiting for graduation and my results. Its been 3 years since i have been studying in poly and its finally over. I have to admit it sure does feel like its only yesterday i was at orientation. my friends and i were chatting about that time after our last paper and when we went out to catch percy jackson and bowling after that. More of such outings will come i assure you.



Ok back to topic, ever since my grand parents have moved into my house with my family, its been like a land mine field here with a ticking time bomb. Any moment anytime there can be an "explosion" and it will continue for a long long time. Take yesterday for example, my dad was scolding my brother and me to do the laundry just because he cant find his clothes. My brother made it worst when he in turned scolded me expecting me to do it since i have all the time in my hands now since i graduated. I mean come on what right does he have to lecture me when he isnt even around on the weekdays and when he is around he is practically oblivious to whats going on around. They say army makes mature guys. I doubt its working on my brother its making him worst though. He comes home only washes his own clothes even expects me to help me sometimes, hit the computer, never gets off it until sleeping time, even if he does get off it, it would be to go out. He doesnt even lend a helping hand like basic things to help give my grand parents their medications (he doesnt even know what to give them). My parents dun even scold him thats the worst part. even if they scold him it would mean that i get it as well. Where is the justice in that? I made the effort to come home one day even though i was suppose to be out the whole day (i had a break in between) to check up on my grand parents since no one was home. But what did i get for that? A scolding at the end of it. Man... Living in this house is really trouble brewing every where and most of the time it happens to me. I want to avoid it but it always seem to catch up to me some how. How do you expect me to go out and forget all of these when when i return home its the same situation again. Is this what is happening all the way till i enter army? Why does the youngest in the family always have to suffer? Why? If anyone know the answer please let me know.



After saying all that, i guess i just have to live with it as its part of my life and i have to find and outlet like what i did for the incident which happened yesterday today, i ran the anger out of me on the soccer pitch during a match i had in the morning. Sports and friends i would say are my remedies i suppose.



Thats all i have to rant about. Hopefully i will update my blog again and not leave such a huge gap in between! Seeya!

Its been a long long long while since i last posted a new post. So much so that its practically stagnant already. I doubt anyone will see my blog anymore even. Well the reason i haven been blogging much is that nothings much changed since the last time i last blogged and needless to say i haven really "moved on" as many of you would put it to be. And today was one good example, I am on my way home today (as usual) and i was listening to my mp3 (as usual again) when the song I'll never break your heart by the Backstreet Boys played. Its one of my favourite song from my favourite band and i listen to it all the time. But surprisingly this time plenty of memories came flooding back as i listened closely to the lyrics (well most of it anyway but not all are descriptive of what i am gona say). Of cos i suppressed the feelings just by taking deep breathes. I have no idea what triggered the thoughts or what so ever, I have already stopped trying to remember the "incident" and move on. It may have been a month plus since that thing happened but i have no idea just why i haven done so. Part of me says to give up and move on, but the other part is asking me to continue and not give up. Which side should i listen to, what should i do? I hope things will be clearer after more time have passed. For now i guess its the usual then....

Before i leave i shall leave a quote.

"In order to succeed, at times you have to make something from nothing." - Ruth Mickleby - Land.

Oh and if any of you have a twitter account, you can follow me (my user is Becksrulez), i update on there alot more then here. Of course. Ok i am out. Peace.

I may not be the ideal person you wanted but i am just a simple guy who love you. I am not going to let go of you so easily, rather I am going to keep trying (I dun believe miracles can happen without hardwork) but letting you go at the same time (if I see that things have changed between us or you have found someone you like) just to show you how much I care about you. Of course i would never do anything rash or stupid such that it would really affect our friendship and as a result, we cant even be good friends anymore. Thats something which I really wouldnt want happening.

Ps: I am still on the road of recovery so it might take a while (maybe even longer) before I am really back to myself.

Hey all, i am back blogging again. I haven had the greatest of days for the past few days and it almost got worst today. I was working like the usual weekends but it was especially difficult to handle the crowd and more importantly one tough customer today. I have no idea what happened to me because like another day i would have handled the situation in a proper manner and solved it easily. But like i said i have had the greatest of days for the past few days and i am still recovering from an incident which happened to me. So while handling the tough customer with his constant demands today, an invisible force started to come over me and it made my mind blank. I started looking all over the place for answers and help from my colleague. But she didnt do much so i just explained kindly to the person with the words that came to my mind at that moment. It was over after a while but the impact was still on me. After work i went to a Ntuc nearby to buy a bar of chocolates to bite on and i left my work area to a nearby park to calm down. At the park, i realised that my hands were shaking from the ordeal. Man... a customer had embarrassed me infront of a crowd who was in the line behind him to buy the product. But more importantly there was a question of was why couldnt i react accordingly quickly?

I think i have the answer to that, like i mentioned i am still on the recovery road of something which happened to me. Its not something that can be overcomed overnight but i am slowly trying to get over the incident and move on with my life. I have no idea how long it would take the level of emotions in me is still rather high and that could be one of the reasons why i couldnt handle a situation which on any other day i could. But i am glad i hadn't lost a close and best friend of mine. I hope the bonds of our friendship would not be strained because of this incident but instead be stronger. They say that if you really love a person, all you want for that person is happiness. And i totally agree to that. I will slowly let you go but i will always be around to help and give you advice to nudge you in the right directions if you ever need me as good friend.

Now whats left for me to do is to end this post and i hope to blog again someday with something on a brighter note. Seeya all.

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Ok enough of that... moving on...

So whats sup people its be a long long while since i last blogged, lets see close to 3 or a month ago since i last blogged? haha. Well as usuall nothing interesting has happened to me for this pass month. Usual go to school, home, sports, piano and work. Well yea i have to admit work is different each time i start, i get to meet different people who behave different when it comes to "cheap" stuff. You can say that its typical kiasu-ism in Singaporeans. You can tell by the way they want to buy alot of products at one go just because its cheap.

Moving on i had basketball last week on wednesday and again on sunday. Wednesday's run out was rather ok as me and my friends had to wait for about 4 teams before our turn so i guess i didnt really had much run out that day though we did had a few games between ourselves first before other people came. But on Sunday, it was a great run out for me as it helped me to really gauge my fitness since i haven done much jogging or any soccer matches under my belt for the past few weeks. I managed to do some interval training jogging about 8 rounds around three baskeball courts sprinting the length of three basketball combined and jogging the length of one basketball court. I also hit a few shots along with my friend. Napfa's coming real soon for me and i will be looking to do well. HOPEFULLY! haha.

OH i almost left one of the important things that did brighten up my life a little, that was catching Transformers 2: revenge of the fallen, the movie a day after it opened in Cinema. Man it was great and the graphics of the movie was breath taking. I shant say anything more after this afterall not everyone might have watched this movie as its still rather new so i shall not be a spoiler. But it IS a MUST watch! haha. The next up coming movie that i want to catch is Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Its just around the corner. And man i cant wait, after watching the trailer the movie must be really good.

That would be all from me, Ladies and gentlemen we will now begin our landing.. please buckle up your seat belts. Thank you!

HaVe A gReAt dAy ToMoRrOw! =)

Ps: An update H1N1 has hit over a 1000 cases in Singapore already (just as i predicted), I sincerly hope that those people who have symptoms or are sick would take personal responsiblity to take care of themselves and prevent the sickness from spreading to others. This is the only way we can help to prevent a dangerous spread of H1N1! =)